Week 17 Part Doux “Journey of the Hero”
Coming into the second part of week 17, It seems keeping true to all task have me asking of myself “Am I being lazy? Is it my being true to my core colour of White?” Which states that whites are masters of procrastination. I hope I am not using this as a crutch? Certainly food for the Old Blue Print! Let him starve! I fed him long enough. Dam parasite!
Since the start of the Franklin makeover I have found myself slacking more than ever. I sit and listen to this week’s webinar and notice the feeling of being in unfamiliar territory. Looking in all directions to see which way I should go while all around me are running here and there with purpose. Yet I understand what is being said and why. I am concern to say the least, that I may becoming a candidate for the “nice to know you” speech.
We are now cresting over the halfway point of the Master Key Experience. The part of the Hero’s Journey where, like Jesus in the desert, about to be temper like never before. The test of all test. Do or Die.
At this point our Old Blue Print get to raise up and give his/her all to keep you in their court. Missery Loves Company! We now face the Four Stages of Death. Not so much human death but more of the death of Our Old Blue Print. It has been explained to us that this is our best friend, who has been with us through Thick and Thin, the Good Times and The Bad Times. Sort of like marriage. However there comes a time in some to end it and move on. Like marriage not all parties are in agreement to the separation. Familiarity breeds Contempt. Isn’t that how it goes? I’m no expert here as I am still single. It has guided us safely throughout our life making sure we where not harmed in anyway. So it thinks. It has also in protecting us prevented us from becoming all we can be or all that we already are. Good thing it isn’t our enemy. Now that could be scary! Or is it?
So as we travel down this road of Heros to become all that we are we must face these Four Stages. Denial, Anger, Grief and Acceptance. All four are associated with refusing the call of the Herald. So Mark is explaining each step and as I listen, I suddently realize that I may be wrong and that I am not lazy after all. Denial! At this point in the journey one starts missing reads. Slaking on the sits and not fallowing the tasks. Or just doing enough so ones old blue Print will pat you on the back and say “At-a boy go have a snack and watch that rerun on tv”. I sit and ponder this. At one point while listening to the mastermind Q&A at the end of Mark’s enthusiastic outbursts I am interrupted and Old Blue dives in like a prize fighter in a tag team match. For an instant I want to throw my books down but I do not. Self Control takes over and I calm down. The battle is about to begin.
Monday evening. I have thought all day about my virtue, Taking Initiative. I spotted a couple in others and tried to focus on myself. I seemed to have forgoten this part last week. Tonight is our Tribe Call. A small mastermind group with our guide and fellow MKMMA classmates. I chatted earlier with one of my MLM partners who is also taking the MKE, Master Key Experience, about how she was finding the tribe call. She mentioned that it seemed her group’s guide lacked something in presenting the topic of the week. I believe it is more our time and we pick the topic or topics. We chatted about the core colours and I mentioned how well our group was doing once we got someone to start talking. I am White with a Yellow secondary. Both colours are not great fans of taking Initiative in taking control or leading the charge. Which is really kind of funny due to the fact the majority if not all of us are of a yellow white core combo. Thank God our guide’s core colour is blue. She is great in pulling teeth. LOL Well it isn’t that bad but you get the point.
So where am I heading? I am sitting watching tv and checking email before the tribe gathers. I think to myself, “Self! Lets just take the night off” Man I have no desire to answer this call. I am still dealing with Sunday’s webinar effects. It is 8:30pm. Tribe meets at 9pm tonight. 8:45 I am up. Ok lets get with it! I’m Taking Initiative. My Franklin makeover virtue for this week. As I wait for my guide to login I sit and with my workbook open thinking of what I am experiencing. Sort of a love hate feeling. I have no intension of quiting just so you all know. I am in for the long haul unless Mark throws me overboard. My past nipping at my but for all the things I said I was going to do and never have.
My guide logs in to find we are all here before her. As it turned out I was the one to be the first to share how things are going. I explained how I felt. After spilling the beans and admitting to some degree of failure my guide cuts in with her perspective. “You are in denial, what I am hearing is you are making the effort” She comments on the fact that just a few days before I rewrote my DMP, Definite Major Purpose. I am doing the work but half-hazardly. It is time to buckle down, AGAIN! . Dawn the battle attire and prepare to fight! This is me a few years back during a Santa Clause Parade.
THERE CAN BE ONLY ONE!
Tribe members support her perspective. They cheer me on. I mention that even from the beginning of this coarse showing enthusiasm in my reads has been an issue. It has been a long time since I have had enthusiasm for something. I recall a time back in the late 70s early 80s I had the desire to learn the violin. My Grandfather used to play. I took the initiative to the point of locating an instrument and an instructor. Great! I will be just like my grandfather! I’m all set. When I got home full of enthusiasm I proclaimed my desire to my parents. Now I must inform you that in the past I had this habit of saying I’m going to do this and that and then never follow through. “That old Crying Wolf” routine. I was Pumped! What did my parents say? “You’ll never stick with it” “you will be wasting your money and the violin will collect dust” Not a very nice thing to say, but they where right. Old habits are hard to break. Just like trying to stop smoking. Anyhow once I heard those words my enthusiasm fell like a lead ballon smashing to tiny pieces. Although on the bright side years later and much older I was once again inspired and found the enthusiasm to play the guitar. Thanks to my brother-in-law and masterminding with him I succeeded. I yet to master the guitar but I do know how. All I need now is practice.
So I am Taking Initiative and putting for more effort to slay my dragons. I will be calling on masterminds.
Early this morning (Friday) I had a few minutes to quickly check email before heading to work. One of my loyal blog followers posted her blog. I sat in shock for a few second. I would have never have thought she would be one to Sign Off “In Honour”. I will miss her support. She did the right thing and I am amazed she made it this far considering her work schedule. This moment has given me inspiration to forge ahead. I have no plans of adding this coarse to the list of all of my failures!
See You All On Sunday!