Week 22A Odds& Sods
And what else can I say? Since March has arrived I find being self directed is more of self bewilderment. Yup! I think about where I am at and how far I have come.
It seems odd that when I applied to the Master Key Experience I had this expectation of how I will be when the coarse ends. Six months seemed so far away. I was unemployed when the coarse started and had time to spare. Then I was called back to work and started fretting how I was going to fit everything in. Thats when we got to start making recordings of our reading. BAM! What timing! I was worrying for nothing. Now that we are two weeks from the end, I am not sure whether to cheer or cry.
It has been a blast! Made new friends and alliances and even learned a thing or two. How bout you? They said after the coarse the learning continues for life. I can see why. Somedays I really have to work at staying on tract more than others. Og says in scroll VI that We will become masters of our emotions. Dam! I think we should have started this in month one. Yes some of us if not all will most likely slack off on some things. I have found this last month there is a lot I am not doing. Wether it is my busy schedule or wether it is time to restructure our teaching into a new more refined method of staying focused. As long as we keep the main thing the main thing we will do just fine.
I run my week from Sunday to Saturday. As soon as Sunday’s webinar arrives I start reading the latest Master Key lesson. This Sunday before our Sunday off I seemed to have lost my emotions and spilled the bucket. Stupid thing is I knew better but there I was. BLAH BLAH BLAH. So off to bed I went and in my sit looked for the answer. Monday (thinking it was the 1st) started reading scroll VI. To my surprise I was a day late in my reading and should have read it Sunday. “I Will Be Master Of My Emotions”. Well looks like I scored big time here haven’t I?
Then came the challenge of the Vow of Silence. Another emotional flare up and I did manage to hold back the rush and be the silent observer and listen to see what others will say. It was almost that NO TV week all over again. Wow! That was close. Then came a small incident at work, which I will just leave alone. Once again the emotions took over. It took me the rest of that week to get my emotions back into their respective corners. I shared this with one of my mastermind tribesman and it really helped just to get it out there. “No One Makes It Without A Mastermind” Is the universe testing me? Is this part of my journey like Jesus in the desert? Perhaps so.
I thought when I started this coarse I would be on my way back from the abyss. I really have no idea as to exactly where I am in my journey right now. Reading other’s blogs I have noticed some took two years where others made their journey within these few months. I have a ways to go and will get there in due time.
This past weekend has been somewhat of a relaxed not much happening weekend. Saturday Mother and I met my brother and his wife for a late lunch in Norland about an hour away. We got home around 4pm and after a tea and checking emails I fell asleep in my comfy chair. 7:30ish I awoke to find that Mother took a nap also. Then Sunday I found myself sitting with Mother watching the Hour of Power. I’m not a big fan of church or even watching related programs on TV. However here I was. There was one thing that really seemed to take root as I watched.
It is this:
“The Thing You Worship Is The Thing You Become” Sounds a lot like “You Are What You Think” doesn’t?
Then there was:
“The Soul Is Designed To Worship Something” I found these words very profound and related them to the master keys.
The subject of the day was on believing. If you think about it regardless of your beliefs we all believe in something. Even believing in nothing is still believing. As the pastor continued he made the observation that wether one knows it or not even no believers have their days of being grateful. They may not know why or to whom they are grateful but they are. The Soul right from the beginning has this desire to believe and to worship something. It sort of fell into my thinking that regardless one way or another we are all worshiping the same thing. We may call it something different than God or the Universe. I suppose as long s we are all in service to others and doing what is best for the grater good than we are in enlinement and on the right path.
Last Sunday after TV I felt kind of restless yet didn’t have the desire to do anything constructive. God knows I have lots to do. The Vow of Silence is still playing through my mind. When, Where, How, etc. So I said to Mother “I’m going for a walk” You’d have thought I said something out of sorts! I don’t take walks that often if not at all. So off I went. It was after 1pm. My walk in silence took me in to the lake where I was born, a quarter mile one way. Then while there I detoured up to the dam for a little looks see. I then headed back out the road and took a side road (unplowed) through the bush to a near by road. Another quarter mile approx. From here I continued to the highway and down to the next side road and followed it back past my house where I worked my way back home.
One of my stops halfway to the lake. The dam is on the far left in the back.
I got back home about 3pm. Tired and yet refreshed. Still today as I write my calves are still complaining that they should have stayed home. It was a peaceful walk and letting thought wonder where it may was great! No big Ah Ha moments but perhaps this was shall we say: All in the training for the Big Silence.